There's 2 days left of the school year and we're all having mixed feelings about it. Leaving all these memories for summer and the start of Junior Year. As well as leaving some friends who haven't been there for me. Before thinking about others and how they're taking things, first think about how you are and what you're feeling. You can't just ignore your problems for other people's problems. No matter what they mean to you, they aren't worth sacrificing your self- esteem first. Of course, you shouldn't only think about yourself. Life would be boring if it would just be you in it right? Imagine sharing a banana split alone. It wouldn't even be a banana "split", it would be a banana "whole". *heheheheheh suriii* There are definitely those reasons why I wanna stay at school. Definitely still wanna see my friends and others everyday. That summer distance feeling could be enough to make you want to fly over to New York and jump over the Empire State Building. Sepanx much?
Another thing I'm extremely anxious about is the CCPDS Summer Scholarship results that will be posted tomorrow around noon. The audition itself was a horrible, angry monster that's been eating me up inside since Saturday. Unlike last year, I was alone and terrified. Even though I knew some people, I didn't have a stretching buddy and screaming buddy. My mom was off in La La Land and my dad was at home. I didn't ask any of my friends to go, because that's just awkward. Sometimes, I don't even know what I'm doing half the time I'm awake. The pursuit of clarity is pretty relevant in my life right now. A common question I ask everyday is "Why". Why do people commit petty crimes? Why do people act differently?
I guess i'm just trying to find myself like everyone else in the world.
ALSO PREMIERING MY NEW SERIES : VAGABOUND